Mid-life crises are comical to people. You hear the phrase & think of a gray-haired man in a shiny, red convertible, trying to reconnect with his youth. It’s funny, right? But the reality of it is uncomfortable; modern culture had to transform it into something comical to brush over the harsh truth that mid-life crises are sad, telling instances of a person regretting many years wasted away. It is a crisis, after all.
Here’s another tune about Knoxville. This one started as a concept from a buddy of mine who wanted a song about growing up in Knoxville, starting out playing little league with what would eventually become life long friends. Everyone grows up through high school together, then a lot of people move away for school. But there’s always this desire of having everyone back in the same place again to create more memories together. One day you find yourself back at the same ball field where you met all your friends, & you’re there watching your own sons play the game. I wanted to go a little deeper & hint at how important it is not only to carry on tried traditions, but to remember to craft your own legacy as well. So here’s “The Long Haul (for Wes)”.
'When you have internal value, Personal Charismatic Value, you need nothing more than the shirt on your back. YOU are the value.'
Krauser wrote this several months ago & I keep coming back to it because it matters so much. How many outside influences do we call upon to help us determine who we are?
For most of us, value is an episode, a brief surge of confidence that comes when everything is in its right place. But it isn’t permanent. It seems to come & go as it pleases, a phenomenon beyond control.
It’s beyond our control because it can’t be internalized. It’s validation. It’s ownership. It’s status. It’s smiling just because you have to. It’s everything on the outside.
Internal value comes from health, from achieving a fullness of self — your best self (intelligence, charisma, masculinity/femininity) & your individuality (your talents realized), & from freedom.
Look at the people around you. Do many of them appear to value even one of these things? I’m continually amazed by how little freedom is valued. People sign their lives away in almost every possible way, & in most circumstances are eager to do so.
Government. Work. Marriage. Mortgage. Children. DEBT. I can hardly list anyone I’ve ever met over the age of 35 as “free.” & none of these people have internal value either. They’ve left it up to everyone else to determine exactly who they are, what they do, how they behave. Busy worker bees, on the constant search for external value, all the while adding more bricks to the fortress of a false idealized self. Internal value unrealized.
But for me, developing it has led me to the most fulfilling place I’ve ever been in my own life. It’s a place worth finding.
You want to be yourself, idiosyncratic; the collective (school, rules, jobs, technology) wants you generic to the point of castration.” - Nassim Taleb
Carbs are back on the bike. Airbox is not. Had to remove the bottom half of it just to get it back in. That thing is a bitch. Need to get some lube to try to fit the boots back on the carbs; I’ve also heard heating up the boots might help. Mostly I’ve just heard it’s a bitch.
Also, cables are reconnected, but there’s clearly not enough spring back in the throttle when I pull back on it, so that’s something else I’ve got to figure out.
Looks like a great, more than temporary, fix that I may try for my seat rather than professional re-upholstery.
How to adjust float height & float hang on Keihin PD41A carbs.
"Modernity: we created youth without heroism, age without wisdom, and life without grandeur."
"Another definition of modernity: conversations can be more and more completely reconstructed with clips from other conversations taking place at the same time on the planet." - Nassim Taleb